Recent Thoughts

I really should've written more often but things just kept on coming and kept giving me excuses to not write. And this one was meant to be here yesterday.
Before starting anything, why do so many Russians read my blog? I'm indeed honored but meanwhile just wanna know what I is attracting the Russian population. Oh by the way, to the ones who read my blog for whatever reason, thank you. It's more of a open journal so I'm willing to share what I believe and essentially who I am.

I've had some rants recently, or more like all the time. This isn't my first time digging into the topic of evolution. The U.S. is a strange place, not that I don't love it, which has probably the largest well educated population who deny the theory of evolution. And it seems like there's probably even larger portion people of my faith, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, who don't believe in the theory of evolution.
I've said it and I say it again: it's totally fine what scientific theory one believes, or one doesn't believe any scientific theory at all. Or, one has different view on what scientific theory is. Science, and religion, and any other theory/philosophy, are the lenses that we human beings use to interpret our observation. One thing both theists and atheists believe is that we, humans, can't hold the whole truth. Thus while we are using the right lenses, religion or science or both, our natural inability limits us to reach the whole truth. It doesn't mean we give up, but only means we try even harder.
One reason I admire Brigham Young is that he realized, openly admitted, but was never ashamed nor discouraged of, his imperfections. He kept preaching after saying "I have known many times I have preached wrong." Acknowledging we humans, from the prophet of God to me, constantly make mistake helps me to better tolerant the ideas that I don't understand.
I was confused many times because the scientific theories and the gospel of Jesus Christ contradicted each other when I was about to accept the gospel. Eventually I realized it's not science and gospel don't coexist but rather I don't want to embrace both of them. As I stated before, both science and religion are the lenses we use to observe this world. While we have scriptures as one gift from God, our intelligence is another gift from the Father. Indeed we oftentimes need to use our intelligence to understand the scriptures even though we make mistakes all the time, like Elder Bruce R. McConkie. It's true the scriptures never directly mention evolution or the big bang, but it never says they're wrong either. Cars are not mentioned but we still drive them. There's a reason why the Father doesn't make the scriptures encyclopedia. In addition there's a reason why He doesn't make us understand the scriptures completely. They are the same reason, the reason why we are here on the earth, to exercise our free agency. So if I deny scientific theories, or the goespel, just because I can't comprehend them, I'm missing out the purpose of this life.
But again, it's just me. Everyone can, and should, choose what he/she believes as long as it's for the right reason, or even it's the wrong reason. To me, I'm blessed to be able to understand some science so I won't give up this privilege. Others might have different blessings so they don't have to think the same way as I do. Or maybe the blessing I have isn't having the knowledge, I could be wrong about evolution and the big bang, but the blessing of always having an open heart to new ideas. It doesn't matter. What matters is I'm on this earth to access my free agency and learn as much as I can, and try to reach my full potential.

Again, this is my understanding. If you are interested in what I believe please go to www.mormon.org, I guarantee you won't get the whole truth of the universe because only the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost have them. But you WILL reach the door to the whole truth, to the Gospel of Jesus Christ.