How Much I've Changed

No details. If I were the person I used to be, I would've seriously beaten this one person. Instead I didn't even say a word. Another case, I would've said something harsh to this other person who really deserved it, which now I don't even bother to waste my time. In both cases I'm not even trying to keep calm, but rather not care at all. The only reason I'm writing it is because I asked myself this random question a few minutes ago: when's the last time I got into a fight?

I would never guessed this had I been asked before. There are more than just that. I used to be a good basketball player, maybe division II or even lower division I level, now I can barely play. I'm more indecisive than ever. And other good or not so good changes. As I'm having these random thoughts, I realize how unpredictable life is.

I appreciate it. Unpredictability doesn't stop me from trying new things but makes me think before doing things. The more I think, the more I respect my life. Once I started to respect my life, I started thinking the meaning of it. Then I had the urgency to learn the purpose of my life, and once I reached that point I turned to the truth, the gospel of Jesus Christ.

All these things are miracles. Miracles don't have to be something come out of blue and make no sense whatsoeer. They might not be something we will initially appreciate. Miracles are the things in our lives that shape us into who we are. The more I accept miracles, the clearer I know the purpose of my life.

So going back to how much I've changed. I've no idea. I don't even know how much I appreciate these changes. But I accept them, and try to understand them. Seriously, once I learned what miracles are it became too hard to not accept them.